Are you there blog??? its me crazy...

I know, I know we all say we'll do better but sometimes we just have to let somethings go my prediction will be about 3 weeks from now, I will be better but who knows?? I am helping with a school play at my childrens school, Going to school myself so I can sparkle!1 (I'll explain later if you don't get that). Had a couple horrible weeks at school (my work) when a family endured an unthinkable tragedy. Kind of rocked my world a little more than I thought it would. Tore all the ligaments in one of my ankles, (ever tried to chase oompa loompas on crutches not fun!!) Anyway these are the reasons, there not that great but there mine. So I hope to be back soon and as for my journal blog (not that you care) I have kept careful notes I just need to transfer them to computer. Hope your all well Loves to the bloggies!!

I think I fixed it!!

Let me know if it worked I think it was somewhere in one of my widgets. If it popping up on you please let me know! Thanks for the input!!

Can a blog have a virus?

I think mine does, everytime I pull it up I get this stupid adopted austrailian thing? Is it doing this to you when you pull up my blog? If it is I am terribly sorry. If you know how to get rid of this any suggestions would be welcome!! Happy Tuesday to you. AI is on tonight and I am hoping to recap sorry I have been a slacker to much life lately.

So this one show started again,

I love this show, but I don't really always watch all of it, I really like the beginning. You know the part with a lot of weirdos?? And one of the blogs I love to stalk, recaps The Bachelor which I refuse to watch but I love reading her recaps so I thought I would recap AI.

Hasta la bye bye, won't miss you at all, can't wait to hear the sound of you gone!
Sorry if you like her

Can't wait to see what she brings to the table, I really love her, but not like that!

If this is his last season it is also mine, he is why I watch, I love his honesty.

I liked Posh Spice more than I thought I would, she was really nice and not as weird as I thought she would be. (Are you sure your friends with Tom Cruise?)
Here are some of my faves.
OF Course the cutie patootie cancer surviving guy from Utah
gorgeous eyes a little Sinatra like and blue eyes to boot?? HELLOOOO!
Justin Williams

The Alicia Keys girl with the beautiful teeth and voice
Ashley Rodriguez
I predict top 20!

The little girl with the Grandma with Alzheimer made me cry
good, but didn't love it.

The afro,Jim Morrison, broken wrist dude...can't decide yet...he kinda looked dirty to me.
The boat driving dude loved him! But I don't think he'll go that far.
I love the Amadeo Diricco funny New York Italian guy. Maybe it's because I am sitting through some musical auditions this week also, but I enjoyed it being back!
Welcome Back AI!
See you for Orlando REcap and please tell me your favorites!!
And if my recap is horrible! or if its okay!

Top Ten things I like more than I should

I totally stole this from another blog and mine won't be near as creative or funny but here goes, If not at least you could go to that blog and laugh for a while.
1) Doritos Nacho cheese, they give me migraines but I still love them.
2) Broadway musicals, and yet I not seen an actual "broadway" musical.
3) The FLO lady from the Progressive insurance commercials, seriously cracks me up.
4) Blogging, facebooking etc. (pretty obvious don't ya think?)
5) Simon Baker from the Mentalist (in the words of Rachel Ray whom I loath YUMMO!)
6) Snuggling with my kids on second thought I can't love that enough.
7) Knowing the answers I am quite obnoxious
8) Making any kind of progress any at all!
9) My hubsters arms they are hugs and awesome and very muscley, they make me feel all kinds of safe.
10) Dr. Pepper, looove it!!
Tell me yours come on you can do it!!!

So did you hear??

I started a new blog, because 4 is just not enough!! This one I am pretty excited about so if you would like to check it out, Feel free and please follow even if you don't, it looks so lonely on the side, it is still in the beginning stages so I will get things going better in a couple of days. This blog will be going private for reasons of my own. So if you would like an invite leave me a comment either here or there, this blog will remain public though. Hopefully you all had a wonderful New Year!! Much love!

♪♫What are you doin' New Years, New Years Eve??♪♫

So What are you doin New Years Eve?? Love that song by Mr Barry Manilow who is so easy to hate just ask my hubby, but I can't think of New years without think of him and Night Ranger who I remember playing at Dick Clark's Rockin Eve when I was younger.
I am so happy to be bidding adieu to 2009 Hasta la byebye!!
I am also happy because I get to spend the New Year with these besties:
Doing this:


and this
Playing these:
and eating this:
Happy New Year Everyone! Hope you have a great 2010!!!!

13 years of high and lows

Marriage is hard, to suggest otherwise is a disservice to anyone who is considering it or who is in it, but it is so worth it, today I celebrate 13 years of marriage with my sweetheart and best friend, and I can honestly say I love him more everyday, it was however fitting that on our anniversary eve we were fighting like cats and dogs last night! All is well and resolved (i.e. I got my way, because I am usually right!) and today we ARE reminded of how much we love each other and how far we have come. So in honor, I thought I would post 13 of our highs and lows to remind how much work we have accomplished and to remind him (not that he ever reads my blog) how much I love him. Happy Anniversary honey!

Bad news first
1. The Day we got home from our honeymoon, he was let go from his job, and I lost mine 3 months after that.
2. The first 1-5 years of our marriage John had to constantly remind me that if we fought he would not leave me or divorce me, this was not an easy lesson for me to learn.
3. For 8 long months we forgot to love each other.
4. CONSTRUCTION BUSINESS!
5. They day we lost our little girl, this was also one of our highs.
6. Our two different time schedules.
7. John realizing that I am probably the most stubborn person he will ever meet and HE married me.
8. The day I had to watch John betrayed by a couple of his closest work friends. (he forgives, me not so much!)
9. Um yeah, the economy sucks and construction really sucks this is ongoing.
10. Getting used to both of our families has been a real struggle and is ongoing but we love them both.
11. Finding out John's Dad had leukemia
12. Finding out John's Dad's leukemia had returned,
13. And losing him 2 short months later.
Now the HIGHS!
1. Finding out after knowing each other for most of our lives that we loved each other and getting married 2 1/2 months after our first date!
2. Discovering I was pregnant shortly after our honeymoon, after being told I would never have kids. (don't do the math!)
3. Brody, Catie and Porter enough said.
4. Our first home, however much I hate it, its ours and we have made it ours quirks and all.
5. The realization that history does not have to repeat itself.
6. Falling in love over and over again.
7. The day he turned to me and said "You married me fat why wouldn't I love you the same way you loved me?" .....Plus do you think I would ever want to start over with someone else?? after all the work I have put in, if you left me I would get a dog and call it good!! (lolololol this still makes me laugh!)
8. Surviving the worst twenty four hours of my life and having him there beside me at the end of it.
9. The day we realized that all of our kids are smarter than us!!
10. The day we were sealed for time and ALL eternity.
11. and the day we realized the significance of that sealing and knowing exactly what our little girl looked like without ever seeing her. Our Olivia is waiting for us.
12. The day John started his own business on his own.
13. could be tomorrow..........

Loved you forever, always have always will!

Why we do what we do...

Is it worth it, all the searching for the gift especially when they ask Santa for something different than you and Santa had already discussed? All the wrapping, and the hiding and the stressing and counting, does so and so have more than so and so.. Well when I see some of these faces on that lovely morning I say YES! YES! YES! it's worth it!

The look of the perfect hat!
Cool shoes for keeping tootsies warm!

What prompted this response? Speed Racer sheets! (The best part is I forgot about them and shoved them in at the last moment and 6 bucks at ross!)

The big gift that we "expected a huge response and they just sat there in awe...
Can you guess what it is??

Love it!
Awesome!


Just so you know Santa you can find these at the Clark Planetarium in case you go to twenty stores again??

Couldn't you just kiss that face??

This is...I am too cool to be this excited but I can't help it because after all I am still a kid!!!

Hope you all had a very Merry Christmas and that the faces you got to see were just as wonderful!! Happy New Year!!

WARNING!! Sappy, self indulgent post coming up...

I sat down at the computer for the first time in a while, i have been FBing from my phone a lot lately and I just haven't had time. So tonight as I looked over some lovely blogs that I frequent, I was overcome with a feeling of gratitude for the blessings I have. I am usually the queen of negativity and I sometimes dwell on it for way too long, who am I kidding a lot of the time! But as I sit here listening to the kiddos playing together instead of going to bed, my hubby looking oh so proud of himself for the gifts he bought me himself. (he is a really good shopper!) Gazing at my Christmas tree that I love and my blanket from when I was a little girl wrapped around me. Even though I don't feel great, I feel grateful, for a grandpa who is spending his first Christmas in heaven in a while, and the love that he left behind to my three little children, he was not perfect, he had flaws but he did do something AMAZING!! He was and is a wonderful grandpa to my kids and I miss him, I miss him for them.
This time of year can be so sad for so many people but I need to remember my blessings, need to remember how many things I have been blessed enough to love and care for. I love my family, I adore my children, I have the best friends and my best friend I love more everyday and I cannot imagine my life without him five days after Christmas we will Celebrate 13 years together!! I have a sick twisted ritual that I check off my list every year we are happy together its something only a child of divorce would understand, but the thing is, I cannot imagine being happier with my hubby. We have our challenges and trials but we are solid and I really didn't know if that was possible for love to be like this.
I wish all of you peace and happiness during this season, I wish you hope, wish you small celebrations of tiny happenings and comfort in your own skin. I wish you love. Merry Christmas Everyone! And when your tired and you can't sleep, count your blessings instead of sheep and you'll fall asleep counting your blessings...(White Christmas)