Friday, July 1, 2011

A New Page

So yada, yada I haven't blogged forever, moving on.

I am sooo not an Oprah fan but for use of a better term, I have had a serious aha moment, that I have to write down so I don't forget it. Recently I had a amazing experience with my son Brody, who is one of the coolest people I know, this kid sets goals and acheives them all the time and I have no idea how is he so great! Well last year he decided he wanted to do the Ragnar Relay Race and I was a little aprehensive,...big race, my little boy, not enough sleep and he loves his sleep. But I said okay, he paid the dues and off we went. We were so lucky to have him on a team that was incredible such great role models for my boy (and little did I know ME!) I just wanted to freeze time and never forget the lessons he was learning. He pushed himself harder and faster and longer and it was amazing and yes I cried.

But in the middle of this experience was the beginning of my aha moment, at the end the second leg for our van, one of the best people I know started her run, she was nervous, and I could tell a little worried and really nothing phazes this girl, so I was a little concerned for her. This run was hard and long and dark and uphill. But she told us to go get some dinner and then come get her and we could go to the place where we would sleep. (such a rockstar) So we did, as we made out way back to her as I was driving up, up, up the hill that she was running, I began to be worried for her and just couldn't imagine how she could be doing this when we finally reached her almost to the checkpoint I might add, I felt this huge sigh of relief seeing her running, with what looked like vigor and enthusiasm. I couldn't believe it! I rolled down the window to ask her how she was and if she needed anything and her reply was NO I'M AWESOME!! said with the most joy and passion I have ever heard. I remember thinking I never want to forget the joy I heard in her voice, she wasn't being boastful or saying she this awesome person, she was absolutely filled with awesomeness!! I loved it,

After pondering that for a few days I started to realize what an impact it was having on me, And I started to ask myself some questions that needed asking. Do I have anything in my life that I do for myself that brings me that much joy? I have joy watching my children succeed and my husband but do I have anything like that, I wanted to be able to feel that.
There are many things I used to love to do, that I have left by the wayside and put others first as I should do being a mom, but the season of tiny ones is gone and why I am still crazy busy running them here and there, the time has come for me to find my passion and my joy.

So after a very long, tearful, amazing discussion with my husband, we decided with some changes to our lifestyle that for now I would quit my job and take care of things that I need to, to find my joy. The list is long but I have such peace in my decision, and even though it is so hard to leave a job I love dearly I know I need to do this for my family, my hubby and for me. I need to look in the mirror and be proud of what I see, and I am so grateful to people who inspire my every day and a husband that truly loves me and supports me. I couldn't ask for anything more. Really long post sorry if you endured it and finally a pic from the race and my boy with pure joy on his face.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

neener, neener....

For very long time(island talk) I have read blogs where people talk about these amazing vacas they take (over and over again I might add) to sunny locals with beautiful beaches. I would be green with envy wondering if it would ever happen to me. Well guess what it is!!! And I am going to blog away!! Especially when this is what occured today!

So for you jealousy pleasure (or mine) I will be going here. And yeah that is a real picture Cozumel Mexico.

And here Montego Bay Jamaica (can't ya just here the beach boys?)
And finally here Georgetown Grand Cayman. uh huh! Can't wait, can't wait. So excited. And so grateful to my sweet Mother in law for taking all her kids and their spouses on this fabuloso cruise!!!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Heavy Things

All righty we are just going to ignore the fact I haven't blogged in like forever because I like the island of denile, it is pretty here and they know my name. And I am going to blog about something trivial and menial.

Do you have just have things that are dumb about you? I like heavy things (considering my current size, this statement makes me laugh and is hilarious to me) I know it seems weird but I do. Heavy glasses, silver ware, dishes, jewelry. So when a certain birthday hit upon me like a ton of bricks (heavy pun intended) I was thrilled when the hubster, listened to me when I had said about a year ago ever so gently handing him the tag off a piece of jewelry I had bought from an dear old friend of mine, saying "If you want to buy me a gift go here" I know subtle. Well he listened (shocking) Not that he listened just that I say a lot of crap and he managed to pick up some of the good stuff I said. This lovely along with 5 other charms it came with was delivered to me on my birthday. And made me soooo happy and giggly. And one of the charms in particular is heavy so it beautifully keeps straight and doesn't go ring around the rosy around my neck (which drives me nuts). Anyway just thought I'd share my love of this stuff. Her stuff is cool, hip, bohemian, and so different which are my favorite things. BTW I was not paid for this advestisement (but I'd like to be :)) Go to that pretty orange sticker on the side over there for all the goods. Kelly Annie Jewelry Rocks !! Oh and so does my hubby!